Golkifarnit I hate people.

[MrMcKeigue]

I am STUCK here. My favorite Straight-Edge buddy broke in two different ways and it makes me wanna pull my hair out. This town has almost no edgers in it. Why is it that people just can't control themselves? Humans are such fools. I have only a single complete edge buddy left. :[

I suppose the reason I'm posting this is because it makes my struggle seem meaningless. Like days I don't even care about holding edge anymore. Not that I'll ever break it, though, cause I'm on oath. But it just feels so... POINTLESS when surrounded 100% by these activities.

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[linsee]

I think a lot of people claim edge before they know they can commit to it, hence all the breaking. It sucks.

[SgtD]

what can you do, it's their lives...

[Lifestyle_X]

it's not because ppl aren't edge that they can't control themselves.

[straightXed]

I am STUCK here. My favorite Straight-Edge buddy broke in two different ways and it makes me wanna pull my hair out. This town has almost no edgers in it. Why is it that people just can't control themselves? Humans are such fools. I have only a single complete edge buddy left. :[

I suppose the reason I'm posting this is because it makes my struggle seem meaningless. Like days I don't even care about holding edge anymore. Not that I'll ever break it, though, cause I'm on oath. But it just feels so... POINTLESS when surrounded 100% by these activities.

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What do you mean when you say you don't care about holding edge anymore? What is your struggle? Why are you surrounded 100%?

[MrMcKeigue]

it's not because ppl aren't edge that they can't control themselves.

But when people make a commitment and blow it by peer pressure or desire, that's a lack of self-control.

[MrMcKeigue]

What do you mean when you say you don't care about holding edge anymore? What is your struggle? Why are you surrounded 100%?

Well, sometimes I just feel like the emotion backing my lifestyle doesn't exist and it's just my oath to my god keeping me from doing it. My struggle is just trying to find a single person in my town with a sincere sXe lifestyle. Because almost EVERYONE around me does something... EVERYONE. Except for that one buddy so I guess it's like 99.99%. Smoking, drinking, pot or more vicious things. It'd be nice if I had just a couple more. Believe me, I search.

[straightXed]

But when people make a commitment and blow it by peer pressure or desire, that's a lack of self-control.

Yeah but don't forget they could be making the commitment because of peer presure or desire. But the point lifestyle made was that not being straightedge isn't the reason which i take to mean that you can have self control without being straight edge.

[MrMcKeigue]

Yeah but don't forget they could be making the commitment because of peer presure or desire. But the point lifestyle made was that not being straightedge isn't the reason which i take to mean that you can have self control without being straight edge.

That is a good point. Either way, though, those individuals are letting themselves be influenced too easily.

[straightXed]

Well, sometimes I just feel like the emotion backing my lifestyle doesn't exist and it's just my oath to my god keeping me from doing it.

what emotion do you require? I'm guessing happiness about your life choice? If you are just doing it because of an oath you swore to god surely that is akin to peer presure? You aren't likely to be happy about it if your only reason for doing it is because you swore to god you would...it does seem like you are making it hard for yourself to do or be what you truly want...denying yourself expression and freedom is just the flip side of no self control. I feel you need to look at this whole oath to god thing because its sounding a little messed up right now.


My struggle is just trying to find a single person in my town with a sincere sXe lifestyle.

from experience io really suggest you don't put so much pressure on that, it really isn't the best way to find like minded people. I will tell you that even if you find someone else who is straightedge it doesn't mean they will make a good friend for you, straightedge is a really small part of who you are, don't allow it to become your defining trait as thats really false and misses all the other things that you can have going for you. I know how it feels, i was the only straightedge kid in town for years and years, i thought i wanted to just be friends with other straightedge kids but after meeting a few i thought they were complete pricks...because they were. I have a few straightedge friends now, not many and most are in other parts of the world but the reason we are friends is not because of straightedge as much as because i like them as people and they like me...at least thats what they tell me!!! If you make it a struggle you defeat yourself at the first hurdle and you will atract like for like mistly so you will atract other people desperately struggling to find somewhere they fit in. You can find great friends in the strangest of places if you are open to it so try not to make everyone fit into a straightedge mould before you befriend them.



Because almost EVERYONE around me does something... EVERYONE. Except for that one buddy so I guess it's like 99.99%. Smoking, drinking, pot or more vicious things. It'd be nice if I had just a couple more. Believe me, I search.

So your circle of friends all do drugs and that is their main focus...its sounds like you are searching in the wrong places. Not everyone has a focus on smoking and drinking...you may find a lot of people do it but with a lot less focus and friendships can come from all the other interests you have in common. I am not sure what your interests are but i am sure you can find common ground somewhere with someone and there is nothing wrong with being friends with those that do drink even while you don't...that is a much better sign of self control but like i say if you aren't doing it for you but rather for your god than you may find that to be a potential reason to begrudge things.

[straightXed]

That is a good point. Either way, though, those individuals are letting themselves be influenced too easily.

are they? or are they just trying to find where they fit in with things? I mean the only difference is you are stopping yourself due to an oath to god because you also have the desire to find people you can fit in with. Thats why i think that is something you really need to look at with some scrutiny.

[Lifestyle_X]

But when people make a commitment and blow it by peer pressure or desire, that's a lack of self-control.

But I guess not all of the ppl in your hometown are like that ?